Tease

I know there are probably many people that are thinking to themselves "why's this girl so impatient, it isn't even her due date yet."

Probably because having contractions that start and stop for like 10 days straight is annoying. Hopes go up. Hopes go down. Seriously boy, just make up your mind!

On impatience and dates

I'm not known for my patience. In general or in pregnancy.

I just had this "feeling" that Forrest was going to be a March baby. That he was going to be early, maybe by a couple of weeks. I was worried about it for some time. Then last week I got super-impatient and anxious to meet him. I'd finished up the things I really wanted to get done at work before I left. We were all ready. I was getting lots of the "you're still here!?!" comments. I was having lots of contractions which made me hopeful.

And so it's now April and he's still sitting pretty. And I'm okay with that. He actually has a most awesome due date and it would be so cool if he waited to come until then.

His due date is 4-4-2012. His Great-Grandmother's birthday is 4-4-1924. How neat would it be for Forrest to be exactly 88 years younger than Nanny? The thought of it is keeping me nice and calm right now.

Of course, come Thursday of this week I'm going to be really impatient again.

Optimistic

I was checked today.

Now, I know enough women and have discussed this with them at various times, to know that being checked really means nothing.

So I thought on my way in to my appointment today "it really doesn't mean anything, no big deal either way." I knew she would check me because we'd agreed that I could get my membranes stripped at this appointment.

But of course, it's so hard not to get your hopes up when you hear that you are 3 cms (a good 3 that could stretch to 4).

I'm glad to know that my contractions have at least been doing something. Now get your act together contractions so we can meet this baby!

The difference a week makes

Last week was a crazy week. I had multiple meetings scheduled each day at work that I really needed to get in before Forrest came. All week long I hoped and prayed that he would just stay cozy in there, so I could get all my stuff checked off.

This week...I'm ready for him to be here. Everything is checked off the list. My office is cleaned. And I'm walking laps waiting and waiting for something to happen. I'm so anxious to meet my boy!

And of course, now he appears as cozy as can be.

Things you do

...when you may or may not be in early labor:

--laundry so all the comfy clothes you've been wearing nightly for the last week are clean for the hospital.
--clean the kitchen so the house is nice if you have visitors.
--charge your cell phone.
--make sure there are some books loaded on your kindle.
--bookmark the "contraction master" website for easier timing
--drink lots of water
--throw a few more things in the bag you've had half-packed for a month
--do more laundry when you realize the white nursing tank didn't get washed
--watch some March Madness
--debate about taking a nap

A first

It's not a secret that I wanted a girl this time around. I am one of four girls and I just adore my sisters and wanted Heidi to be able to experience that bond. When we found out that we were having a boy there was some disappointment, I won't lie. It was expected and both Josh and I thought he was a boy, but I still had this little hope that it was a girl. 

I didn't really start getting attached to him until we had the names narrowed down. 

And then I still had thoughts with each ultrasound that maybe they would tell us we were wrong and I would get my Willa. 

Tonight, at 38 weeks, I was combing through Heidi's hair after her bath and I had this flash to what it would be like to be having another girl...and for the first time, I wasn't excited about it. I don't want a surprise at delivery. I want my Forrest. The boy that I have fallen madly in love with. 

Cannot wait to meet him. After tomorrow, that is.

Three more days

Not until my due date :) That's 15 days away.

Three is the number of days that I absolutely still need to be pregnant in order to get everything done at work that I need to get done before Forrest comes.

I'm not sure if others have this same thing happen. I literally lay in bed at night and go "please do not go into labor tonight."

With Heidi, of course, she was the first so I had no reason to believe I would go early (or on time for that matter). And it was summer, so I wasn't on any kind of schedule or time crunch. Now, I really have no reason to believe that Forrest will be early either. Other than that I have a feeling he will be. I've had more braxton hicks this time around and more powerful ones than I remember with Heidi. I feel like there's a good chance that a second baby will come early. But really, I just have this strong feeling that he's not hanging around until April to make his debut.

Ask me next week if I'm getting impatient and my answer may be different. But for now, I'm perfectly content staying pregnant. At least for the next few days.